An’an played with Xiao Qi at his cousin’s house for a whole day, and was sent back the next evening. The little one knocked on the hospital room door himself. From this side of the door, I asked, “Who is it?”
An’an urgently called from the other side, “Sister, brother-in-law, open the door quickly! An’an has brought ten little brothers back!”
When I heard this, I was stunned! I turned my head to look at Fu Junyan’s silly expression, then secretly lowered my head to look at my belly with no signs, and got up hesitantly to open the door.
After Little An entered the room, he unusually didn’t pounce on me and Fu Junyan, but sat calmly in his cousin’s arms. The two got along strangely harmoniously, An’an didn’t throw a tantrum, and the cousin smiled with deep meaning. The little one sat down, snuggled his small body in his cousin’s arms, wrinkling his cousin’s flashy white clothes. Then, he arrogantly directed his cousin to hand him his Bololo backpack. Hugging the small backpack, he looked at me and then at Fu Junyan, then shyly smiled, his little face turning red, covering his chubby cheeks and happily told me again: “Sister, An’an has brought ten little brothers!”
I was both conflicted and curious. Seeing the cousin behind An’an trying hard to hold back his laughter, I couldn’t help but twitch my eyebrows and eyes. With a sense of “ominous” foreboding, I turned my head to look at Fu Junyan for help.
Fu Junyan, with good temper, didn’t even raise an eyebrow, and asked the little one with an extremely soft tone, his eyes filled with amusement: “Is that so? Then can An’an show brother-in-law?”
An’an heard this and nodded happily, his big eyes bright and clear. He carefully took out his little sketchbook, then patted his cousin who was holding him. The cousin raised an eyebrow, pinched An’an’s chubby cheek once, and reluctantly stretched out his long legs. An’an let out an “Oh ho!” and skillfully slid down from his cousin’s legs in a flash.
I was curiously staring at the little one, but saw An’an excitedly run to Fu Junyan’s bedside, then suddenly stop. His big eyes turned cleverly, then he suddenly tilted his head, and with utmost cuteness, poked his chubby hand and asked Fu Junyan: “Brother-in-law, does getting an injection hurt?”
Without waiting for Fu Junyan to answer, the little one tilted his milk-bubble face, pointing at his little arms and legs, reaching out to touch Fu Junyan’s hand where he had received an IV drip yesterday. He nodded his little head foolishly and said, “An’an knows! Injections hurt a little. But An’an can huff and puff! An’an can kiss it and it won’t hurt at all.” Saying this, the little one climbed onto the hospital bed with Fu Junyan’s help, his little mouth gave a smack as he kissed Fu Junyan’s hand, thought for a moment, then snuggled his chubby face and kissed it again, before tilting his head and asking, “Does brother-in-law still hurt?”
Fu Junyan patted his head, looking at his hand now covered in An’an’s saliva, but his eyes were filled with warmth. He turned his head to look at the little milk bubble seriously and replied, “Thank you, An’an. Brother-in-law doesn’t hurt anymore.” Then he pinched An’an’s chubby milk-bubble face, asking with full anticipation, “Where are the little brothers An’an brought?”
Upon hearing this, An’an’s little body immediately shook, he lovingly stroked his little sketchbook, and said mysteriously in his little voice, “The little brothers are in here!” Then, he carefully opened the sketchbook, and I saw ten little dogs based on Xiao Qi, chasing balls, rolling on the ground, wagging tails, holding toy bones… they were adorably silly. But, little brothers! ‘Little brothers’ born from my belly…
Cousin finally couldn’t hold back and burst into laughter, holding his stomach and saying very annoyingly, “Young master! Young master Jun Yan! So this is what your offspring look like? Hahaha!”
I was angry, pouting my mouth and turning my head to scan over, glaring at him and saying, “Comrade Mo Nuoyun, you go away, be careful or I’ll contact your rumored girlfriends one by one, and then contact your mom! She’s been wanting to hold a grandchild! Let your sister see what your offspring look like too! Ha!”
Unfortunately, my threat didn’t work, cousin was still laughing ‘uncontrollably’. He shook his head indifferently, and started to criticize one of the little dogs An’an had drawn.
But then I heard Fu Junyan suddenly speak up, seemingly puzzled as he raised his eyes and asked, “Nuoyun, do you know that singer Qin Mengmeng? I saw her coming to find you with what looked like medical records in her hand.”
Cousin froze upon hearing this, his laugh stuck on his face, eyes wide as he looked at Fu Junyan, “You’re joking, right?”
Fu Junyan looked at him without speaking, then seriously shook his head at him.
So, cousin became agitated, he very uneasily scratched his hair, slapped his thigh like his butt was on fire and said, “Well, your brother has been busy with business lately, I won’t be able to keep you company… ” Then he disappeared in a flash, the door slamming loudly behind him…
“Who is Qin Mengmeng?” How did she scare cousin like that? I don’t know her…
Fu Junyan lowered his head to smile at An’an who was looking up with big eyes full of curiosity, and softly answered me, “A newly debuted singer from your company.”
“She’s involved with my cousin?”
Fu Junyan nodded and then shook his head, while hugging An’an and continuing to look at the ‘little brothers’, he answered, “A few months ago, saw them in the parking garage.”
“She didn’t really come looking for cousin, did she?”
Fu Junyan chuckled softly, he turned his face to look at me and said, “No, I was teasing him.”
“Then why did you shake your head!”
“I was expressing, ‘I’m not telling you.’” I was dumbfounded, indeed, in a battle of wits with Junyan, you can’t win…
Cousin had been gone for quite a while when An’an, sleeping next to Fu Junyan, suddenly poked out his little head, looking around like a scout, left and right, before nodding, puffing out his chubby face, raising his chubby little hand and self-reporting, “Sister, brother-in-law, An’an did something bad today.” However, his little expression looked quite mischievous, not at all like admitting a mistake.
I was curious, holding a spoon while picking up some warm porridge to feed him, and also feeding Fu Junyan, I asked the little one curiously, “What bad thing did An’an do?”
The little one swallowed another big spoonful of porridge before saying, “An’an and bad brother met Shuang brother in the elevator, An’an farted, then An’an pointed at bad brother and said, brother farted stinky!” As he said this, An’an covered his little face and kept laughing, his big eyes rolling around, saying mischievously, “Bad brother was stupid and didn’t admit it, so he was scolded by Shuang brother. Shuang brother disliked bad brother, scolded bad brother for blaming his fart on An’an, asking if he was a man?” Saying this, he scrunched up his little face, looking up confusedly to ask Fu Junyan, “Brother-in-law, what is a man?”
Fu Junyan chuckled lightly, pointing at An’an and saying, “When An’an grows up, he’ll be a man.”
“Yay! An’an is also a man?”
“Yes, but before that, there’s still a lot to learn.”
An’an nodded, happily squinting his eyes, showing his bright little dimples and saying, “An’an wants to learn from brother-in-law!”
Fu Junyan nodded, patting his little head and smiling, “Okay.”
After seeing the ‘little brothers’ An’an had drawn, Fu Junyan kept praising An’an for drawing well. After waking up from their nap, he started flipping through the little sketchbook, seriously researching the ‘little brothers’ with An’an. He almost treated An’an as if he were his own age, patiently discussing with the little one how the ‘little brothers’ could be improved further. For example, the fur on that tail could be drawn a bit higher; when a puppy is angry, its tail is tucked; wouldn’t that ear look better if drawn drooping like this? The big one and the little one squeezed onto one hospital bed like this, sticking together for a whole afternoon. Occasionally when An’an was delighted, he would jump around wildly on the hospital bed. I was afraid of disturbing Fu Junyan’s surgical wound, so I had to remind An’an, pressing down on the little one’s shoulders and shaking my head at him, saying, “An’an can’t jump around near brother-in-law now! Brother-in-law’s body will hurt.” The little one would nod, sniffling sympathetically, patting Fu Junyan here and there, and obediently stopped jumping around.
In my heart, I was actually both conflicted and troubled, watching them draw countless ‘little brothers’ all afternoon. Listening to them, one big and one small, going back and forth with just a few sentences: “Should the ‘little brother’ be like this, right?” “Yes! Brother-in-law is so smart! Qi Qi’s is also like this! Wow!” I felt both warm-hearted and speechless…
Later, after finally coaxing An’an to sleep, I turned around and looked at Fu Junyan helplessly, raising my hand to also self-report, saying, “Baby needs to make a serious statement!”
Fu Junyan nodded at me, looking at me with a half-smile and asking, “What?”
I wrinkled my nose, acting coy and smiling shyly, giving him a coquettish look before saying, “An’an’s drawing is very good, that’s right! But, baby can’t give birth to puppy sons! And, um, if An’an thinks little brothers are like this, but the result is that little brothers are like that, won’t he be so sad he cries?” Saying this, I felt embarrassed and pointed at An’an’s little backpack nearby, saying, “Just like this Bololo! He’s always insisted until now, An’an just always believes penguins are blue…”
Who knew that Fu Junyan, upon hearing this, would slightly cover his eyelashes and chuckle lightly, actually tilting his head to ask me back, “Where did An’an go wrong?”
“Fu Junyan, how can you call your son a dog?” I wanted to cry! I was bristling!…
But he calmly asked me, “Silly pufferfish, tell me, how did the ancients refer to their sons?”
I was dumbfounded… I was just short of holding my head and crying in pain, conflicted for a long time, my face almost wrinkled into a bun. Finally, I looked at Fu Junyan stiffly, gritting my teeth to spit out two words: “Quanzi…”
“Translate it.”
“Dog son…”
“That’s right, you see how smart our An’an is…” How can it be like this, you overprotective…
In my heart, countless old mother hens suddenly ran wild, but I was blocked by Fu Junyan with no power to refute. I could only cry out in my heart, baby I’m sorry, mom can’t get over Master Mountain! Just bear with it, dog son is dog son…
I turned my head resentfully to look at An’an’s little sketchbook containing countless ‘little brothers’, thought for a moment and suddenly had a flash of inspiration. Pouting and looking down submissively, I started to mumble, I said, “But, um, I don’t have the ability to give you so many dog sons… Fu Junyan…”
He heard this and laughed even more happily, his eyebrows and eyes like spring, holding my hand and gently stroking my lower abdomen, turning his face to look at the soundly sleeping An’an, comforting me by saying, “Silly child, we already have An’an, actually I’d rather have a daughter who looks like you…”
“Wouldn’t that just be a little pufferfish?”
“Yes, pufferfish is good…”
Regarding the compensation issue for my sea baby beating up Ji Jie’er, I originally just wanted to trouble Wan Qing, this manager, to handle it. Who knew that Sister Ruofan would call me as soon as she heard the news. Her first words were, “Xiao’ai, although sister has many questions! But sister won’t mention these for now! Let’s first talk about how you’re going to compensate Ji Jie’er, how do you plan to compensate?”
I raised an eyebrow and very naturally replied, “Pay money, what else?”
“You money-losing thing! How can you so readily pay money?” Sister Ruofan on the other end of the phone became agitated as soon as she heard this. I twitched my eyebrows and eyes, instantly feeling a gust of cold wind pass by.
“Then if we don’t pay money, what should we compensate with? We can’t let her find someone to beat up my sea baby, and then buy a car for her to smash, right!” I would be very unhappy about that!
“That won’t do!” The voice on the other end firmly denied, muttering very seriously, “Sister is depressed in my heart! Last time when the video of me being slapped was exposed, no fan stood up to help me beat Ji Jie’er. You don’t know how happy I was to hear she was beaten this time! It shows how precious your sea baby is, how much he conforms to people’s hearts! This is absolutely a rare animal, must be resolutely and definitely protected!”
“So?” I wrinkled my nose, feeling my ears itch.
“How about sister takes on this job for you?” Sister Ruofan was particularly eager to offer, but her tone was threatening…
I was conflicted, smacking my lips and saying, “What do you want to do, Sister Ruofan?”
“Money needs to be paid, but for example, that car! If it can be repaired, just send it for repairs, why should we compensate her with a new car? Right? Xiao’ai, you’re still young, you don’t understand these things. Living life, you have to be careful with money, and never let bad people take advantage. Alright alright, you just take good care of yourself, take good care of the young master, take good care of An’an, take good care of your dog. Sister will handle this matter for you, don’t worry…” I heard her talking and talking, then laughing like a witch, my little body shuddered, and I said very uneasily, “Well, Sister Ruofan, don’t go too far…” After a pause, I trembled and said again, “Um, how about I let my manager accompany you?”
Wan Qing took my handwritten letter to visit those few sea babies who beat up Ji Jie’er. She expressed my gratitude to them on my behalf, and also asked them on my behalf not to be impulsive in the future. We can’t be liked by everyone, it’s enough to live without owing anyone. At that time, I was still grumbling on the phone with Wan Qing, I said, “Sister Qing, you can tell them not to be so impulsive when encountering things in the future, karma will come to those who deserve it! It’s not that it won’t come, just that the time hasn’t arrived yet!” While I was smugly saying this, preparing to eloquently express myself further under An’an’s admiring gaze. But in the blink of an eye, I was tapped on the forehead by Fu Junyan. He helplessly glanced at An’an nestled in my arms, then glanced at me and said, “Baby, don’t corrupt the child.” Then, he directly took over my phone, monopolizing the right to speak.
Afterwards, An’an and I pouted at each other, tilting our heads to make faces at Fu Junyan.
After Fu Junyan hung up the phone, I reached out my hand, puffing out my cheeks and looking at him, saying, “Give the phone back, not letting people finish talking, I’m not a kid!”
He calmly put the phone away, looking at An’an and saying to me, “You’re just a child who never grows up.”
Hearing this, I strangely felt my little heart flutter, feeling very happy…
As a public figure, Sister Ruofan was really too bold… That day, Sister Ruofan made an appointment with Wan Qing, and the two of them took reporters to send Ji Jie’er’s car for repair, asking the repair company to calculate the cost on the spot. Then, they went to the hospital with the reporters to confirm Ji Jie’er’s medical expenses, and under the witness of a lawyer, negotiated the compensation for mental damages, so-called loss of work, recuperation fees and so on due to the beating incident. After that, the two of them nodded at the compensation list, turned around and left.
While everyone was puzzled, half an hour later, the live broadcast on Apple TV showed Sister Ruofan leading the way, with more than a dozen men following behind her carrying bags of black sacks, entering Ji Jie’er’s management company and delivering the sacks to her office. Then, Sister Ruofan and Wan Qing once again apologized to Ji Jie’er politely and sincerely, and then pointed at the sacks covering the ground and said very kindly, “Your compensation is here.” Finally, when they waved their sleeves and left without taking a single cloud, the originally small office was almost occupied by dirty sacks. Standing at the very back wearing a light pink long dress, with a bandage still on her forehead, Ji Jie’er stared at everything in front of her with a frozen face, her eyeballs almost popping out. At this time, a nosy reporter opened the nearest sack, and through the lens we saw that the sacks were filled with one-jiao coins…
I was stunned, turning my head to look at Fu Junyan who was patiently accompanying An’an to do a puzzle. He raised his eyebrows and eyes, understanding in his heart, with amusement in his eyes as well. Seeming to want to put my mind at ease, he said elegantly to me, “Don’t worry, this isn’t illegal.”…
Later I also received a text message from Sister Ruofan, she said, “Xiao’ai, I love you to death. How refreshing! Hit her with money! It’s a pity that the smaller denominations are no longer in circulation! Otherwise, hehe!” I just shuddered, thinking, it’s a good thing it was her bullying me when filming “Black Cinderella”…
Because Fu Junyan had just had gastric surgery, his recent diet has been very light, even only able to drink rice porridge for the first few days. He currently can’t eat high-fiber foods, spicy foods, or drink alcohol. Any stimulating foods, drinks and meats are off-limits for him. But I need nutrition now, I need to supplement.
So, at mealtimes, the hospital room was like divided by a line between Chu and Han. On Fu Junyan’s side were light porridge and small dishes, pale in color. While on my and An’an’s side, it was rich and colorful, very sumptuous.
Sometimes while eating, my mouth would be full of oil, but when I looked up, Fu Junyan was completely unaffected, elegantly and calmly eating one bite at a time, neat and tidy, his graceful demeanor not diminished at all even in a hospital gown. But when I looked down at myself again, and then at An’an with vegetable juice still at the corners of his mouth and his little head almost digging into the bowl, I felt like this was truly the difference between heaven and earth…
Because of the difference in diet, An’an would often feel sorry for Fu Junyan. The little one would always hug his own small bowl, first pitifully look at me, pull my sleeve and say, “Sister, brother-in-law is so pitiful, don’t punish brother-in-law anymore, okay?” Then, he would blink his big eyes and stare at me sadly without moving. The little one always thought Fu Junyan ate so ‘miserably’ because I was punishing him. I was wrongly accused by An’an to the point of crying bitterly, but no matter how many times I tried to explain to him, I couldn’t make him understand. Fu Junyan wouldn’t come over to help at this time either, instead looking quite amused and leisurely.
So An’an would always secretly glance at me, and when he saw I wasn’t looking at him, he would toddle over, look up and raise his little bowl saying, “Brother-in-law, eat eat, it’s delicious!” Fu Junyan couldn’t eat, he just looked at the little one and smiled gently, pretending to be curious and asking him, “Is it delicious? What does it taste like?” An’an would then be stumped, puffing out his milk-bubble cheeks, unable to answer.
Then, Fu Junyan would take the little spoon from An’an’s hand, feed the food into An’an’s mouth, and then ask again, “Now can An’an tell brother-in-law, what does this taste like?” The silly little An’an would really seriously shake his head and chew, then excitedly open his big eyes and start describing the taste. Every time it was like this, every time he fell for it, An’an, this little rascal, would toddle over hugging his little bowl each time, and then toddle back with an empty bowl, his little mouth full of oil. From beginning to end, all the food was eaten by himself…
I said, “Fu Junyan, why do I feel like you’re so devious!”
He would just blink at me very innocently, saying with utmost seriousness, “I’m cultivating An’an’s expressive ability.”
“What does this have to do with expressive ability? Stop trying to fool me!”
“An’an can now describe his feelings directly, so he’ll be able to write good essays when he goes to school in the future.”
“Oh, that’s right!!” I looked at him admiringly, then, with sparkling eyes, was led by him onto another path…
Fu Junyan has always been working very hard on his recovery. Whatever the doctor told him to do, he obediently cooperated, also dutifully rested on time, consciously returned whatever documents, materials, laptops that Manager Xu sent over, and turned off his mobile phone. Recently, he would occasionally be childish, sleeping on one bed with An’an. Before sleeping, the big one and the little one would look at each other and then obediently lie down, then together open their beautiful big eyes to glance at me, making faces at me, puffing up their faces for me to kiss.
Every day after deciding who I would kiss first, who would be the champion. Only then would this big one and little one smilingly put their hands under the covers, saying in unison: “Sleep.” Every time, seeing his childish expression just like An’an’s, the man’s and child’s voices overlapping, I couldn’t help but want to laugh. Looking at his raised delicate lips, beautiful as uncut jade, pure as a child, I only felt warm as if at the beginning.
When the baby was six weeks old, Fu Junyan was also just discharged from the hospital. He insisted on accompanying me to the obstetrics department for a check-up. I was nervous about his surgical wound, and seeing the two big ‘buns’ on his feet, I insisted that he sit in a wheelchair to go with me. Fu Junyan was also good-tempered and indulged me, calmly ignoring the curious gazes of passersby along the way. And he didn’t mind at all that everyone was admiring his feet that were wrapped completely without skill, like a mummy.
When people in the elevator stared at him, Fu Junyan would even smile at me with utmost happiness and say, “This is how Xiao’ai bandaged me.” I would just push the wheelchair with a face full of black lines and smile apologetically, thinking, if you don’t think those “buns” are ugly, I think they’re ugly! Fu Junyan!…
I still don’t have any pregnancy symptoms now. If it wasn’t for the physical examination due to the dangerous situation, I think I wouldn’t have realized I was pregnant so quickly. Fu Junyan said that this child is born with good fortune, because even before being born, he has experienced such hardships, heaven will also be reluctant to part with him and will cherish him even more…
After the press conference, Fu Junyan found someone to change my doctor. From now on, the regular check-ups will be done by Dr. Fang, the best in the hospital’s obstetrics department. Dr. Fang is very old, a white-haired elderly person who also looks very kind and gentle. During the examinations, her movements are always very gentle, and her smiling, kind-looking appearance makes people feel better just by looking at her.
After a simple follow-up examination, Dr. Fang said the baby is healthy, I am also healthy, and my malnourished condition has improved quite a bit, but I still need to persist in supplementing nutrition.
Only after hearing this did Fu Junyan breathe a sigh of relief, the elegant smile on his face also brightened a lot. But suddenly he took out a small notebook and pen from his pocket, politely and elegantly asking, “Dr. Fang, I’m sorry, may I trouble you a bit more?”
Dr. Fang raised an eyebrow, nodding without any hesitation.
Then I heard him say, “Junyan hasn’t taken care of a pregnant woman before. Although I’ve searched for some information online, there are still some things I don’t quite understand, and need to trouble you again.” Saying this, he suddenly paused because of my movement, turning his head to look at me yawning with my face up and asking, “Sleepy?”
I nodded, covering my mouth as my eyes squinted.
Fu Junyan’s face showed a trace of indulgent helplessness, silently rubbing my hair and smiling. Then he turned to Dr. Fang apologetically, putting away his notebook and pen while saying, “I’m sorry, Dr. Fang. Xiao’ai is sleepy, I’ll accompany her back to the room first. May I come back to bother you later?” I felt warm inside, but because of the pregnancy I was really so sleepy, I didn’t even have the energy to speak. After returning to the hospital room, I didn’t even pay attention to Fu Junyan, hugging the quilt and falling onto the accompanying bed, unknowingly sleeping like a ‘dead’ pufferfish.
When Fu Junyan was discharged from the hospital, we all got in the car. Only then did I remember An’an’s little sketchbook. Because the ‘little brothers’ in it were really so precious, they had always been supervised by An’an to be safely pressed at the bottom of the drawer. But I had packed everything else and just forgot about it. I could only sigh, wave my hand to let cousin stop the car and wait for me for a while, turn my head to tell Fu Junyan, and then go back to the hospital room to get An’an’s sketchbook.
But in the hospital corridor, I encountered Jay. When I saw him, I was momentarily confused. Hearing him call me ‘Xiao’ai’, his eyes looking me up and down, I suddenly felt uncomfortable, but couldn’t say exactly what was strange.
Jay’s mental state seemed to be not very good again, the dark circles under his eyes were particularly obvious, and his complexion was also very poor, with a faint dark blue tinge. I was stunned for a moment before I reacted, nodding to him.
“Xiao’ai, I saw the news, is your body alright?” He also paused, quickly walking a few steps closer to me, the concern in his eyes couldn’t be faked.
But I felt somewhat awkward inside, hesitating to nod, seeing the medical record in his hand, I stepped aside and hesitantly opened my mouth, I said, “I’m fine, Jay, how have you been recently? You’re holding medical records, are you sick? Or?”
He smiled at me, but shook his head, his eyes gaining several degrees of darkness, saying somewhat desolately, “Mei’s child was born.”
Mei’s child? Although his way of saying it was a bit strange, when I heard about the child, I unconsciously smiled, raising the corners of my lips and asking him, “Then congratulations! Is it a boy or a girl?”
“A girl.” Jay looked at me, his smile bitter when answering.
“What’s wrong? You don’t like girls?” I wrinkled my nose, in my previous life he seemed quite happy when talking about having a daughter…
Hearing this, he shook his head, seeming to want to say something but holding back, smiling bitterly and lowering his face, his hand holding the medical record suddenly clenched tightly. I was a bit scared seeing the blue veins bulging on the back of his hand, just about to step back, when I heard him finally say to me in a suppressed low voice, “The child has a cleft lip.”
“What?” I was stunned…
“It’s a harelip.”
I froze, truly embarrassed. That child, that child who took my life in my previous life, actually… This was an answer I could never have imagined, I didn’t know what to say, and really couldn’t say anything appropriate. I could only walk forward, gently patting Jay’s shoulder, hoping to give him some comfort.
But unexpectedly, when my palm touched Jay’s shoulder, his body suddenly trembled violently, then I heard him say, with some lamentation and struggle, “When the doctor said there might be a problem with the child, I had already said to let her give up this child, but she wouldn’t agree no matter what. She always thought I wanted to abandon her…”
As he spoke, he looked at me, those were a pair of tired and desperate eyes, but with tiny sparks seeming to shine, I heard him say, “Xiao’ai, I know I shouldn’t ask, but I always want to ask. Every midnight when I wake from dreams, I think, if I were me, just me, if I no longer had all these messy entanglements, is there any possibility that you would fall in love with me?”
I withdrew my hand, looking at him in disbelief, stepping back and asking, “At a time like this, what do you mean by you just being you?”
“Xiao’ai, I really want to divorce. I don’t love her, even though I want to repay her, but I’ve found out, did I use the wrong method? Did I use the wrong method from the very beginning? I’m in so much pain, really in so much pain! I want to live well, but she never believes me, always thinks that whatever I do is to abandon her… I’m too tired, too tired…”
“Then what about your child?”
“I will be responsible. For my entire life, I will give her the best treatment, give mother and daughter a wealthy life.”
I know Xu Mei’s stubbornness, and I can understand his difficulties, but I still shook my head and smiled. Thinking about the feelings of being a woman, thinking about the feelings of being a mother, I looked at him and felt more and more uncomfortable, my anger somehow rising up.
Under Jay’s expectant gaze, not only did I not comfort him, but I opened my mouth mercilessly and said, “Jay, you are a man, you can’t be like this. If you feel it’s not right, then don’t start! Once you start, don’t be irresponsible and give up halfway! How heartbroken must a mother be when her own child is not healthy? How can you talk about divorce with her at this time? And the child, will money bring happiness? A good life isn’t given by money, but by love. Do you know how much pain a woman goes through to give birth to a child? And Xu Mei still had to insist on leg rehabilitation while pregnant, her hardship was even double, how can you be so cruel to only remember your own pain?” Saying this, I let out a breath, suddenly feeling a bit dry-mouthed, also feeling strange about myself spouting nonsense like a cannon.
After a pause, I awkwardly rubbed my nose and said, “Sorry, I actually know your difficulties too. It’s just that pregnant women have bigger tempers…”
But Jay seemed not to have heard my apology at the end. He was in a daze for a while, suddenly raising his eyes to ask me, he said, “Have I made another mistake?” His tone was low and doubtful, his face full of decay and dejection, such a sorrowful expression, looking at it, made me suddenly feel a bit sad.
Then, I saw him suddenly straighten his back, as if waking from a big dream, his whole body shaking, his eyes suddenly gaining some solemnity. He stepped back, bowing deeply to me, and I heard him say, “I’m sorry, thank you.” Finally, he raised his eyes and looked at me very intently, then turned and left without any lingering attachment.
And I stood in place for a long time, watching Jay’s back disappear around the corner, before raising my head, swallowing the heavy tears that suddenly appeared in my eyes.
At that time, I thought, life is really full of irony…
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